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(no subject) [ December 25th 2009 | 2:29 AM ]


HERE'S A CHRISTMAS POST )

"Ho ho ho, under the mistletoe. Yes, everybody knows, We will take off our clothes. Yes, if you want us to we will" - Lady Gaga, Christmas Tree

Every year my family really does go all out, and spends a lot of money on gifts. I practically knew 98% of my gifts this year because I picked them all out myself. The only thing I was truly surprised by, was the gift my father gave me. The rest were all clothes, that are pretty much amazing, and every item is sized perfectly (I tried them all on). My Christmas spirit really wasn't that high. We usually go out and look at lights or do some fancy event, but we didn't get to this time around. I still had a great Holiday and I appreciate everything that I got. Other than that, this season has been filled with glee, emotions, love, and many tears (good and bad). I have much shopping to do with all the money I acquired.

I also been working all December to get my old "happy" life back, and getting all organized for the New Years. I reorganized my music files on my mp3 player, cleaned my computer files rid of any viruses and spyware, finally catching up on all my schoolwork, & everything else which I am very happy about. Lately I've been feeling so productive, energetic, and just all over ecstatic. & I got my sleeping patterns back to a normal time so I don't sleep all day. This is great! I'm finally starting to see the end of this depression phase.

Also, big Kudos to my buddy Shone. :D

I'm starting to write a novel. You don't understand how many novels I tried writing, and then randomly losing interest, and giving up. This time will be different! I want to publish my own book series/novel someday, and my imagination has been at an all time high lately, so I will COMPLETE THIS BOOK.

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(no subject) [ December 11th 2009 | 6:09 PM ]
I know it's still too early for the whole "end of the year" summary, but I know nothing too interesting is going to happen in the next twenty days. Every year I write a list of goals or plans that I would like to accomplish for the new year, but this year I didn't get much done; nor have I completed the goals I made for 2009. This year I haven't done what I would like to do, and it was defiantly the worst year that I could ever remember so far. I was in my depression stage this year. I'm just much too of a positive person, so it was really hard to tell. My photography got really bad and I was just "stuck". I got homeschooled at the beginning of this year and I lost contact with all my friends. I just stayed in my room for 3/4 of this year playing on the internet. Pathetic, I know. I didn't post much in this livejournal because it would just constantly sound depressing, and negativity is so not what I wanted this journal to be. So this is the last entry I'm posting about this year and how sad my life is, and blah, blah, blah. I’m not going to post all the goals I made for 2010 because the list is way long, so I'll just keep that to myself. But let's think of this as me changing my life around and this journal will take a different turn as well. Heads up for the next year: Depression or happiness. Positivity or negativity. This journal will be a positive flow of ideas & stories and what I truely stand for, which is for me just to be happy. And if it does happen to be a depressed entry, it will be inspiring.

Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2009. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review."
(I'm going to put my first picture & my first tweet as well.)

YEAR IN REVIEW & SURVEY )



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(no subject) [ December 5th 2009 | 3:20 AM ]

nathanXgore

[ BEAUTY'S NOT JUST A MASK ]

This photo has nothing to do with the Phantom of the Opera. There might be some similarities, but it's not what I was thinking when I created it. If you do want to know what I had in mind when I made this photo, watch this youtube video. Nuff said.

Everyone's always complimenting my messy hair and why I never brush it. I like it messy. I don't look like myself otherwise.

We put our Christmas tree up today. It's pretty.

More updates soon to come.

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(no subject) [ November 21st 2009 | 2:43 PM ]

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Yesterday was actually a pretty good day. I woke up talking to my new friend Justin. We then went to Bed Bath & Beyond, where I took some epic footage of my random antics. Then after that we we went to the mall to go Christmas shopping (my mom's letting me shop for my own presents this year) and we stopped by Hot Topic to get a vest I wanted. They didn't have my size so they took the one off the mannequin and gave that to me. I payed for it, and they took the little security tag off and I started walking out the door. It started beeping and one of the workers came out and took my bag away. Apparently there was a second security tag inside the pocket which we didn't see. It was totally not my fault, & I did pay for it, but it was still really embarrassing for me. I got home and then we watched UP for the second time, because my sister hasn't seen it. Then I scurried back online, to talk to Justin. It was a fun and productive day though, and my new vest looks amazing on me. But I can't have it till Christmas *sad face*.


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(no subject) [ November 7th 2009 | 12:54 AM ]

I redesigned Josh's MySpace and I am defiantly happy with the results. I did a fantastic job, and i even took the pictures and stuff. He wants to start a modeling career, so if you're interested (or just want to see the amazing job I did on his profile), you should totally add him on myspace.

www.myspace.com/j_man_the_saw_freak



& I am fully open to commissions, if you really want your MySpace redone. I can make it look badass. :D :D

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(no subject) [ November 1st 2009 | 11:51 PM ]



HAYY NOVEMBER

I'm starting to hate that hoodie (in the picture above) with the stripes and stuff. I wear it way too much and I had it since the dawn of time. Time to earn some money and buy some new clothes, huh?

Yesterday was Halloween. Yeah, it wasn't very productive, and I wasn't really in the spirit. But I talked to Adam all night which pretty much made it better. Before that though, I went to the Copley cemetery with my friend Josh and I took pictures of him there for some projects I'm doing for him. It was a lot of fun, and it was actually the most spooky thing I did for Halloween this year. I'll try to be more "involved" and in the Halloween spirit, next year though.

I don't know how, but it seems like everything's been changing lately & I just seem so ecstatic for no reason. It's been like Christmas for me and I think talking to Adam has a lot to do with it. I hope my life is finally starting to turn around. I can't believe November is finally here. 2010 will be here very shortly, and I am so excited to start my year over again. I'm not going to say if 2010 will be better or worse because that's what went wrong this year. But I do hope things start getting better. I have to admit, I take depression VERY well.

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(no subject) [ October 25th 2009 | 6:28 PM ]

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I haven't really been up to much. I got a new hard drive, installed Windows XP back in, and got all my programs back up and running. Besides photoshop. IF ANYONE HAS PHOTOSHOP AND WOULD LIKE TO DONATE IT TO ME, I WOULD FOREVER LOVE YOU. My camera also decided to break on me, and the lens wouldn't retract, but thankfully I got lucky and it opened. Besides all that electronic drama, I haven't done much in celebration of Halloween coming up, nor did I make plans for any parties or anything. FAIL! I already know what I might be doing for New Years, but that's a different story.

nathanXgore  nathanXgore

And my friend Jimmy (Which in this case I am forever grateful I have him as a friend) hooked me up with a guy. His names Adam. I don't want to say any more though.

I ALSO LOVE MY NEW PUMPKIN DOMO.

kBYE!




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(no subject) [ October 9th 2009 | 9:24 PM ]

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

I had a great day today. Saw Justine, got some phone calls, got a birthday cake and tons of presents. I also got a lot of clothes. :D

I have a lot of goals planned for age seventeen:
Places to go. People to see.

I'm ready for change.

Send death threats, hate mail, fan mail, fan signs, birthday cards, birthday quotes, drawings, and gifts to: nathanXgore@myspace.com

SPECIAL THANKS TO:

Harlequin Grin, Troy, (Nightmare), Lisa, Kasey, Chelsie, RJ, Justine, My parents, Mellisa, Kassadee, and everyone else who wished me a happy birthday :D

AND MY BOY AARON WHO DIDN'T GET TO SPEND MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME (WHICH IS ALL I REALLY WANTED THIS YEAR) ♥

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(no subject) [ October 8th 2009 | 12:46 AM ]

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I did that photoshoot like a week ago, and I was going to delete these because they were blurry, but after a while I grew to like them. The blurriness really adds to the effect.

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW! I have an amazing photoshoot planned for it as well. :D

I just can't believe I'm already seventeen years old. I know everyone makes a big deal about turning sixteen (which wasn't too great for me), but to me, seventeen is so much more conspicuous. In a year, I'll officially be an adult. Which means, I really need to start learning how to drive, so my parents don't have to chauffeur me around. I also need to be thinking about what I'm going to do in life. I don't have any clue on what career I want to do or anything. UGHH! I don't have much longer till I'm forced with the drama of being an adult. I'll probably do a lot of different things; like web design, portrait photography & editing, making a clothing line, and graphic design. We'll just have to see whatever life throws my way.

My parents are starting to save up for utilities and equipment to fix up the house. They want to finally fix the house up, and sell it by next year in summer. So I'm most likely going to move next year. (Which is also something I don't want to deal with, but ehh...)

I've been watching the 31 Days of Halloween on the Syfy Channel. I watched a strange movie about these deformed hillbillies that eat people. Very interesting. And then I watched another cannibal movie which made me really mad, because the hot guy got eaten in the end.

Search & Win

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(no subject) [ October 4th 2009 | 12:11 AM ]

MY NEW FURRY FRIEND:



* * *
BUY ME THIS JACKET FOR MY BIRTHDAY:



ONLY $2,195.00

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(no subject) [ October 1st 2009 | 12:47 AM ]

IT'S GETTING ULTRA COLD OUT WHICH MEANS IT'S



TIME FOR

HIBERNATION



Like a week or so ago, my computer decided to take a tumble on the floor which totally crashed the hard drive. Which is super sucky because EVERYTHING (like as in 48 GB of photos, important files, videos, programs) are lost forever. And it also means my computer isn't working till I get a new hard drive and can install Windows XP in it. So I'm extremely sad that 3 years of my documentation and collecting files are gone forever.

The photoshop I had in there is also gone which is also sucky, because I didn't have to pay for it, and it's gonna be hard getting it again free. (BTW did you know the new copy for photoshop is like $699? Umm, thanks for the offer, but I don't think so.) So I'm forced to use my mothers laptop (which sucks in my opinion) until I can buy a new hard drive and find a way to get WIN XP.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN EIGHT DAYS. I'LL BE 17, BITCH.

I LOVE JEFFREE STAR'S NEW CD BEAUTY KILLER, SO GO OUT AND BUY IT NOW! AND WHILE YOU'RE AT IT, BUY KISS & TELL BY SELENA GOMEZ & THE SCENE. ♥ ♥

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(no subject) [ September 17th 2009 | 12:08 AM ]




AND ENCHANTED SHE BECAME

n a mystical island, in a cave of ice, lived a beautiful girl. Her skin glistened with the color silver and everything she had ever owned was flawless. In her world of snow covered mountain tops, and glass ice covered walls; she didn’t know anything other than perfection. Her silver and blue dress made her almost seem like some sort of magical fairy ice queen. She lived in the deepest and darkest part of the cave but all she ever stood for was beauty and love. She had everything she could ever wish for, except for a boy to call her own. She wakes up every morning, lying on the cold ice floors of her fortress of solitude, and still fights the tears of loneliness dripping down her face. She couldn’t live without the coldness of the snow, but she often wondered what it would be like sitting underneath the arms of a handsome prince that kept her warm. She sat looking out into the island on her balcony wondering if anyone was out there for her.
      One day when she woke up, the feelings were worse than usual. No matter what she would do, nothing would make her feel better. She knew she was never going to find her true love if she never searched, so she grabbed her faux fur coat with the white tassels and the blue rhinestones, and set off onto her journey. She traveled and traveled, over the hills in her favorite snow boots, until she reached the end of the island. She overlooked into the deep waters surrounding with ice burgs. She sighed and knew this was the end of it. She sat down in the freezing snow with disappointment.
      As she wallowed, an old woman stepped into view. She was wearing a silver colored robe, and a white light that surrounded her.
      “Dear child,” the woman spoke, “there is no need to cry. I can help you get across the ocean to find your true love”. The woman explained to be her fairy god mother, and the princess was very relieved. “But you have to fall in love with someone before the stroke of midnight or it’s too late.”
      The princess took her offer and magically appeared in the city of New York, where she roamed the town for hours. Whenever she tried speaking to a man she thought of being the one, he was either too busy or not willing. Until the strike of 11:00 came and she sat down to cry, knowing she was too late. Someone then tapped her shoulders, to see if she was alright and she turned around to face the handsomest boy she ever seen. She felt overwhelmed by passion and enchanted she became. His eyes were the colors of ice and his pale skin shined in the street light. She invited him to her house back on the island and that’s where they went. From that day on she never saw sight of her fairy god mother. She didn’t need her anymore, but she knew she was still around watching from afar. And the princess felt warm at last, under the arms of her snow prince. They then lived happily ever after in the snow covered mountain cave made of ice.



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(no subject) [ September 11th 2009 | 8:41 PM ]



I'M STILL TRYING TO FIND MYSELF. I've been so confused lately. I want to sleep, I want to wake up. I want to do something productive, I don't want to do anything. Everyday I have to choose between if I'm going to do something in my life or should I just sit it out and try again tomorrow. I have way too many personalities and I honestly can't keep up with them all. I was looking through an old magazine of mine and saw how perfect every single guy is like in there. They all have ripped bodies, a really hot chick next to them and really fashionable clothes. Every girl goes through this at one point in their life, where they see everyone's photoshopped beauty and they envy to be exactly like them. I'm 16 and a boy, and I still do it to this day. I look in the mirror and notice I'm just a shabby little teenage boy with an emo haircut, and I would do ANYTHING to be like those guys in the magazines. Or would I? Because if i really wanted to be like them I could make myself into an exact replica, and I would've already done it. So am I ready to give up all my scene feminine dark humor for handsome boyish Prada jeans? I think it's a stage that needs to pass quickly, so I can finally expose the real me. WHO IS THE REAL ME?



I saw this butterfly today and noticed he wasn't like the other butterflies. He had the same insecurities as me, and I know exactly how he feels. He's scared. He feels alone. It's like trying to fly with broken wings...

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(no subject) [ September 5th 2009 | 8:05 PM ]

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OH MY GOT!

I literally cannot believe it's almost Fall already. It seems like this year just started, and knowing we don't have many more months is beyond amazing.

I'm always so creative in Autumn, and my artistic side really comes out. I guess it's the weather and all the colours that inspire me. I'm gonna do so much this Autumn, it's gonna be crazy. I also started school again, and I'm actually really pleased with the schedule I got. I only have 3 classes this and next semester, but they're gonna be at a college level (a.k.a. more work) so it's nothing to be jealous about.

This Semester:
English III
French III
Math III (Algebra II)

Next Semester:
Family Relations
Government
Science III

I'm currently reading The Shack by William P. Young.

Behind the cut is a video of Lil. Wayne's Video "Go DJ" which was filmed at the Mansfield Reformatory, and it shows A LOT of the building, so if you never been there, watch the video and it'll take you on a virtual-music-video-tour thing. I don't know...

GO DJ Music Video )

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(no subject) [ August 30th 2009 | 5:19 PM ]

For some reason, it feels like I haven't posted in here for a while, even though it's only been like three days. Well anyways I was going to post the rest of these pictures when I got more of an update to post, but I don't want to wait any longer. Last weekend, Sunday (a week ago from today) we went to the Mansfield Reformatory. It's an old "haunted" prison, and was used to film a lot of movies like The Shawshank Redemption, Air Force One, Tango & Cash, and other ones. Plus it's been a lot of television shows like Scariest Places on Earth, 101 Things to Do Before You Die, and even Ghost Hunters. Not to mention a lot of music videos has been shot here, like Lil Wayne "Go DJ" and I'm pretty sure Marilyn Manson has shot here as well, but I'm not 100% positive. Anyways, we went there and took the "East Cell Block" Tour, which is really scary because if you had seen the Ghost Hunter's footage, they seen all these shadows go from one cell to another, in the exact place we toured. Spooky! Overall, the experience was very interesting, and the place was so rotten and decayed it was beautiful. The pictures i took doesn't do it justice in the decaying department. If you're ever in the Mansfield Ohio area, you should totally stop by for a tour. My mother wasn't too pleased of the tour we took, so we might return sometime and take the "Hollywood" tour, where you can see all the places that the movies were filmed at, and stuff like that. Well anyways, Ill let the pictures tell the story. Here we go!

MANSFIELD REFORMATORY [+65] )

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(no subject) [ August 26th 2009 | 5:07 PM ]

UNDER THIS CUT

ARE 130 PICTURES FROM

KINGWOOD CENTER )

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(no subject) [ August 24th 2009 | 7:51 PM ]

This weekend was pretty much intense. I finally got out of the house and spent the weekend at my sister’s apartment in Bucyrus. We had planned for a while to go see the Mansfield Reformatory, which is an old haunted prison like I stated in the last entry, so we did that on Sunday. Besides some negative energy, and being bored out of my mind, it was really fun.

I’m extremely sad that I haven’t talked to Aaron or Kevin in like more than a week. I miss them dearly, and I don’t know why they haven’t been on lately. I also found out today that I start school on Thursday. It feels so odd that I’ll be starting my third year of high school. I’m finally a junior! I remember when I first started high school or even when I was in middle school, I always thought how “intriguing” and “mature” that juniors and seniors seemed. It’s just really weird that I am one of those people that the little kids look up to. I’m also starting a series of books; let’s just see how far I get with them. I’m going to start saving my money for the Wayne County Fair, coming in September. I don’t have any saved up yet but I will hopefully. I’m really hoping I can go more than once this year, and stay longer than I usually do. Every year we go, we only stay for like 3-5 hours. I’m hoping I can stay around all day or something. And I’m going to talk myself into riding some rides. I never ride any rides, because I’m scared of heights or something, but this year will be different. I made a goal at the beginning of the year that I would face some of my fears, so that’s what I’ll do. I’m old enough or try some new things.

Anyways, not much is going on. I just got back home yesterday, and I caught up on my sleep last night by going to bed at 8:30 PM. I’m reading a book called “Frostbite” from Richelle Mead, and it’s about vampires. (Damn teenage vampire trend.) But this one looks halfway decent, unlike Twilight. Don’t get me wrong. I love the Twilight series, but once they came out with the movies, everything has to be about vampires or Edward Cullen. I mean the movie was cheap, they had too much makeup on to make themselves “paler”, and Kristen Stewart didn’t have any facial expressions at all. What the hell are sparkly vampires anyways? I don’t know. I probably don’t like it because I try to hate on what teenagers like nowadays. I’m not going to rant anymore about vampires, so I’ll just post what happened on Friday.

So on Friday, I woke up around 6 AM, which is ultra surprising, because I never wake up that early. But it was probably my excitement for the weekend that had awoken me. I did some much needed laundry, and then packed what I was going to take to my sisters. I packed almost everything I really didn’t need, but I just wanted to make sure. My sister got here around noon, and we left on our journey. It takes us about an hour and a half to get to my sisters house from ours, but it was longer this time, because we stopped for gas and some lunch on the way there. We stopped at a gas station slash restaurant called Love’s, and my mother ordered a salad. It took them way long to make the salad and we started to get really impatient. We then left from there and I had to go to the bathroom really bad. We stopped at an abandoned park and I went in the woods. Lmao. Then we arrived at my sisters, and she left for work. We hung out and just watched TV and then played with the neighborhood kitties outside. Then we ordered a movie on Movies on Demand. We got the Last House on the Left. OMG! Please don’t get that movie. There was a detailed rape scene, and a lot of uncensored nudity. It was fucking stupid. This entry’s already getting way huge, so I’ll just get to posting the pictures from Friday.



GIMME! GIMME! GIMME! [+24] )

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(no subject) [ August 20th 2009 | 3:55 AM ]

HOW DID IT COME TO BE

nathanXgore

TIED TO A RAILROAD

2ND ANNUAL RAILROAD PICTURE 2009 FTW!


It took me a lot of energy to get that picture. I was awoken up around 5 AM and then started getting ready for the photo shoot I was going to do, once it got daylight down at the railroad tracks. I got my hair straightened and got it the way I wanted it to be. Then the sun decided not to come out so early, so I waited. It finally got sunny around 8:30 and by this time my hair was completely frizzy from the humidity. I wasn't wasting anymore time on my hair so I just took a hat (in case of emergency), a few ponytails, a mirror, my brush along with my tripod, all the way down to the tracks which is a very long walk from my home. I had to dodge the workers at Trusco, a few spiders, three trains, and a lot more craziness to obtain these photographs. Luckily, a few turned out well, from the two-hundred that I took today. I then decided the adventure shouldn't end there so I explored close to an oil well pumper. I didn't stay long there cause it started getting really hot, so I rested under the shade of the bridge for a while, then started on my way back home. I was so thirsty and it felt like I really was going to pass out. Once I got home I must've drank 4 bottles of water and took a shower and then fell asleep for six hours. What a day it's been, but I'm happy a good adventure came out of it, and a lot of videos that I will be going through another time.

In other news: I won't be here this weekend. I'm going over to my sisters house and we're going to a festival in Bucyrus. It's my first time going there, so I won't see anyone I know. But then on Sunday we're going to the Mansfield Reformatory, which is an old prison, and you might have seen it in the movie The Shawshank Redemption. I'll have tons of photos to post when I get back so get ready for those. :P

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(no subject) [ August 11th 2009 | 12:22 AM ]



ROGUE'S HOLLOW FESTIVAL 2009

..... was an ultimate failure.


So the Rogue's Hollow Festival is pretty much extended over two days; The first Friday and the first Saturday of August to honor the history of our town (as explained in the last entry). Friday the festival opens by throwing a parade and then stays open all day Saturday till they let off the fireworks. Well every year I go, and i decided this year I'd document for lj, and so I can look back at the pictures and stuff. Well Friday I got all glamoured up and got a ride there with Kasey. We sat through the parade which was pretty fun and I got to see a lot of my friends that I haven't seen for a while. I saw Jessie there and I pretty much almost died. But anyways, after we were done with the parade, we walked around for a bit and I really didn't take too many pictures. But I knew I was going to be up there all day on Saturday so I didn't mind to much.

Saturday came, and I woke up to find it raining and all gloomy. And I wasn't going to go up if it was raining. They still had the festival but I didn't think they'd throw the fireworks off. Well they did. So I'm pretty bummed out I didn't get to go this year and get pictures as well. But at least all is not lost, since I got to see my friends on friday.

MORAL OF STORY: don't get too excited for an outdoor event, because Mother Nature will bite you in the ass.

For the last couple days I've been pretty much avoiding everything possible (twitter, myspace, livejournal, life) and spending most of my time on omegle.com. I must say it's pretty addicting, and there's a lot of idiots out there. But if you can make fun of them it's still really fun. :D :D

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(no subject) [ August 4th 2009 | 1:51 AM ]



Every year our little town has a street festival called the Rogue’s Hollow Festival. Rogue's Hollow is an actual place within our town that has a history rich in stories of the old days when our town was a major coal mining area. As the stories go, the hollow where the mines were located was so full of corruption, greed, and crime that people would go miles and miles out of their way on their horses and buggies to avoid the area for fear of being burglarized or murdered! Hence the name "Rogue's Hollow". Luckily, the festival has nothing to do with Rogue's, just a great time to gather with friends and neighbors to enjoy live band music, a parade, games, activities, fair food, and local vendors. Rogue’s Hollow is most famous for its classic tales and legends of mill ghosts, devils, and even headless horses. They actually used to call this area "Ohio’s Sleepy Hollow". Of course there are so many different stories including the ones about the giant snakes, the Chidester Mill and the Chidester Hill, and the most famous "Cry Baby Bridge".

The legend of Cry Baby Bridge starts out in 1963 when a woman gave birth to a newborn child and knew she couldn’t let her father know about her pregnancy; so she threw the baby over the bridge which fatally drowned in the water below. They say if you go to the bridge on the anniversary of Rogue’s Hollow (a.k.a. when we have the festival) at midnight, you can hear the baby’s cry coming from underneath the bridge. There have been hundreds of stories about the haunting of the bridge, like if you turn off your car on top of the bridge you won’t be able to start it. Or how you can sometimes see the mother’s ghost walk around the bridge at night.

MY TALE OF CRY BABY BRIDGE )

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